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a longtime pal commented that i am quite ‘marketable’, having explored quite a garden variety of career viables. I have never quite seen myself as that, in fact i am that reckless idealist with a dumb streak when it comes to getting it right. I allow emotions to interefere with better judgements, always unsure what to give more weightage to- pragmatics or affections. Do I want a job or a career? Must I realise my calling and thus ‘do work in line with my soul’s purpose’ (got this from tarot.com) to find happiness as per psychological analysis (I am an INFP aka ‘The Idealist’) or having a secure well paying well respected good prospect job. Great on paper and retirement planning job…

What can one with a liberal arts degree majoring in literature and theatre do on the world stage? When you throw caution to the wind, the results can be shocking. I dappled in IT, private banking, insurance, wrote for a while for a trade financial magazine and sold credit cards over the phone to finance my wanderlust dreams. Now I find myself back to square one, back to the arts, back to the theatre. It is actually chillingly scary to be so close to your goal since I am the ‘grass is always greener elsewhere’ person. I am going to stop cashing for soul, i will realign my goals and not live day to day precariously wondering why i am at one raffles quay, do i really fit in with these go-getters, hyaenas, bimbos?That may be a pinnacle of sort of achievement, but not mine. You have to go there to know what you want. (But have an exit strategy)

On the thirtieth-something floor of this modern skyscrapper overlooking the SAILS and the SANDS, i was hopelessly lost and depressed. How did they manage to recruit all the backstabbers, liars, amoral bimbos in one room?

I have been too whiny for too long (tommy’s still queen thou). Instead of being a facilitator, i can be part of the creative, nurturing process, and write too, i hope. A short (a very short) chinese novel inspires me on my flight back from xiamen. the female protagonist waxes abt drawing. She is not the best, but she loves to paint with all her heart and so she shall draw.